live it up...

i never realized its possible to be happy and sad for the same thing until now...

So i havent been seeing a lot of Marc this year and its sad, cause im only 10min drive away, but its ok he's always in my mind :)

BUT!! he is audtioning for a drum corps im really excited for him, I think it will be an amazing experience, and it will be super kool to go see MY BF in a drum corps competion...ok heres the bad stuff

HES GONE FROM MAY 20TH - AUGUST 12TH gahhhhhhhh omg i cry everytime i think about it....IF he makes it ( im sure he will hes a brilliant musican ) i will miss him so much

i have faith in our relationship i know we will see this through and make it, it wil make us stronger but i will miss

so i have no sympathy for girls who miss there bf's and its been 3 days lol

ok im done wow im just using this thing to vent now lol

ok so im in a sad mood because...

i miss him, i never get to see him and we barley talk on the phone cause hes busy with all the stuff he has going on

.... i only get to see him for like an hour or so with everyone else.... we havent been alone since school started...i miss the old days when we could hang out...

i feel bad crying on the phone every night to him, because he is stressed with school, family and band and me crying cant help, but i just miss him like no one can describe

ok sorry for moaning/ complaining

so it has been a rough week and i just wanted to give a shout-out to my friends for being there especially...

Marc

Marlie

Brit

Kyla

love you guys a lot

seniors have a good last game!!!! i know its sad but make it your best

hello

so i dont think anyone reads this so im thinking about packing it in....

maybe i should just do a myspace... who knows

just nice to have somewere you can write!!!

well today was boring nothing really happened

i feel like im a drifter i dont feel like part of my old group of friends, mainly cause im not there, i only really talk to one or two of them i miss them a lot, and my new firends at NIU i hang out with them but i feel like im missing out cause i have to come home!! one thing i learned do not commute!!!

i dont really fit in anywere

well at least i have my few friends that still wanna hang out with me well only a few but it works

did any of that make sense???

hello
so the weekend was weird but it turned into fun...
on friday i was in alone and it really got to me that i really need to sort mylfe out and get out there and not sit around...
i got upset and took it out on the people i love which i have apoligized for..
i did watch 4 epsiodes of the OC dvd it was amaing
and i made my sign " i love t-bones"

Saturday
i talked to my mum and marc a lil they helped me sort things out...
i had my last day of work it was sad/ happy i will miss them peeps, but i will visit...
then i went to the MB competion with my britt!!!!
we had a ton of fun!
and MARC SAW MY SIGN!!!!!
yay
we cheered for everyone and then after i got to see them all and i got to see my HOTTIE!!!!:):)
FUN NIGHT

Sunday
my plan is to do homework and sort my life out for real...
maye dindin with marc but who knows

so i have news... i didnt want to tell anyone until i knew for sure,becuase you had to apply for it and get excepted. i am going...

on the 30th june i am leaving for the dominican republic for a month

the first two weeks are volunteer work helping children and building houses

second two week we go from water fall jumping, horse ridding snorcling, clubbing and so much more im so excited but terrified 

comments???

my birth day was AMAZING!!!

my friends are AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!

my boyfriend is SUPER AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

these past days have been fun

so...this weekend was had its ups and downs

I love my friends a lot i have to say that and i mean it.

Marlie gave me my b-day present today i loved it!!!! You can visit any time!!!

We sat and talked in my basement about our lives i liked it.

I studided way to much ...brittani came over we talked and hung out for while..then i did more studying

So i was wondering if people wanted to go out for a lil meal cause im 18 on tuesday but most of yall have MB ( as long as im not called into work)??

wow im nearly 18 thats really weird...to bad i cant drink jk... i realised after a few certain phone calls from ppl at college im not ready to go partying down there

 

hey,
so my day at school was not that good, but oh well u get on with it.
I had to work on OC night which sucked x1234567654323457
Omg the weekend tomorrow woot!!! i am getting sick i heard lil jon has mono, so im hoping its not im pretty sure its a cold!